I wasn’t going to post tonight because I’ve been feeling so poorly… after my strange episode at work last night, I developed an excruciating headache but only on the left side of my head. I would’ve happily believed that I had an aneurysm or was having a stroke… Joseph helpfully asked me whether I could smell burning toast as a fail safe way to rule out stroke, but as I don’t have a sense of smell anymore it didn’t prove to be a particularly reliable method… So I went to bed and tried to sleep it off, but being a terminal insomniac, that was never going to work either. I’ve felt rubbish and out of sorts all day… but then something happened which has prompted me to post…
I went to Sam’s Parent’s Evening. I didn’t want to go. Last year we were both reduced to tears and it resulted in me making a formal complaint. I couldn’t put him through that again. I couldn’t put myself through that again. I have done a lot of groundwork with school since then, put lots of things in place to help Sam to have a successful school experience, moved him into a different form and educated the staff about autism and internalised anxiety. I did cry tonight, but this time they were tears of relief and pride. Now that the staff understand my boy better, they have created an environment for him in which he can thrive. He is growing in confidence and achieving amazing things. I am thrilled that they are now seeing the boy that I see and they are actively helping him to reach his potential. They all said such amazing things about him. I now have a glimmer of hope for the future. Tiny changes make a massive difference to this kid, you just have to persuade people that those changes are worth making. I’m so grateful that his teachers are embracing him and helping him to be the very best he can be. I know there will continue to be bumps in the road for Sam but moments like this will encourage him to keep going. He is already doing phenomenal things… As I left tonight, one of the teachers stopped me and thanked me for having three fantastic boys because he has been lucky enough to teach them all… that’ll do x
The Wisdom in Wobbling 